what once was filled with laughter now seems to be a vacant lot dark lonely abandoned like it wasn’t worth maintaining sometime ago..
While I stroll by and look at the sights
I feel a sudden joy that fills me with butterflies but not soon after followed by sadness like a saddened widow grieving from her loss of a loved one
For at almost every place a memory of you and i together in our own world where we were untouchable comes rushing to me.
Happiness in it’s purest form like the soft touch of the sun against my skin you brightened my world with just your presence
The laughter and love that once filled the space between us now feels like a scroll of ancient times cast into fire
My face begins to turn red feeling as if I am on fire my mind telling me to run before I get hurt again heart aching as if it is in the grasp of your hands again eyes tearing from the pain licked within my body losing it’s will to fight like a helpless animal that has become prey
I continue to walk on by with a smile like nothing affects me while inside my mind is a ticking bomb and my heart is the detonator.
Our paths continue to cross as I refuse to let go of the one thing that has kept me alive inside and out no matter the case we shared something that could never be forgotten.. atleast not by me...
I see you standing their like we were never anything and feel as if I have been in the desert my throat feeling as if it has not hap a single drop of water I cannot speak to you only to stare in wonder on how you have whipped your slate clean of me an remain emotionless towards me when I once was your world and hope you cannot see thru me and read my thoughts thru my eyes.
I lose track of where I am my mind betrays me forthcoming me with all the moments we shared our firsts and then I remember the things that were said
Remember the lack of affection that became you
Remember you are no longer the man I knew...
I lost you and that man I knew ain’t coming back..